UNUSUAL

What has to be the most annoying habit and yet the most difficult habit for Uju to stop, is her tendency or the fact that she is always more invested in frienships, even when the other party is not as invested. What has prompted her to write about this was a short conversation she had with a male friend of hers Udochukwu this morning. She had woken up wuth the thoughts of him on her mind. As a matter of fact, she is not sexually attracted to Udo. This care or genuine love she has for him was born out of a long ago act of care he once showed her when they were still younger. Over the years,She has observed closely and asertained that the friendship seems not to be anything to him anymore and it hurts her.This is a guy she termed "my best male friend" and at a point "my brother". She needed no invitation to visit him, she was comfortable telling him stuff,even things no other person knows about, her secrets. Well, Uju thought to herself this morning, regardless of the fact that i have been the one doing the callings and texting since we became real adults, regardless of how many times i have had to remind him of special days to rejoice with me,let me pick up my phone to text my friend whom i have not heard from for a while, and who i am sure will not call to check on me. "I do not know if it is the cold tone, rid of all forms of excitement or the most formal way he responded to my messages, but i am sure i felt an unusual sting, unusual in the way it hurt that i never want to feel it again" She thought to herself. Maybe i will, may i will not check on him again if he does not check on me, i am not sure. Maybe, just like this sting hurt differently, i'll just wait to see how long the pain lasts,maybe that will determine if i still need to keep up or not.