Deep Thoughts

There are many things i wish i was, i am. I would trade the world to get an opportunity to recreate myself. Often times, i do not know if i should add,when i am kneeling at the confessional, listing my sins to the priest, who i already have a clue what he would give me as penance that; I querried God for making me so ugly, i also think he did me really bad while fixing my features. Is that a sin? Maybe it is just okay that i never confess it, because i am not about to stop,and what is the aim of confessing what one is not remourseful about?. Nuture your nature they say. When will i stop? i ask. Have you seen me? Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder,is not even enough quote to pacify me. Maybe, bcause i have never had a beholder for my inner beauty, which a lot of people,well, friends say i have. Apparently, the beholders cannot see it. I will never get an opportunity to recreate me, but whether or not i will be punished by God for not being satisfied with what he did with me, is what i will find out much later. For now, a part of my physical feature i will not alter is the one i lack what it takes to.