HIS FIRST OPPORTUNITY

I did not even have time to think of how long it would last or if it was genuine, i just liked the feeling. I liked that i did not let the fact that i felt ugly or too fat stop me from going to see him for the the first time like it had stopped me alot in the past from going to see a lot of guys. Then when i saw him, i felt an entirely different type of feeling, i, Uju Ezigbo wanted him and all he was about, i had just seen him but i immediately knew i wanted more of him. Maybe it was the way he held my hand in public, and even kissed it, but i hated PDA or so i thought, i was surprised when i did not faint at the mention of him wanting to meet again. We were at the cinema, he bought our tickets already and it felt quite beautiful. Not like i have not been to the cinema before, just not with a man, for some reasons.The cinema experience was quite worth it. Funnily, i had seen the movie prior to his cinema treat but it felt new, i did not have anyone kissing me at intervals the first time i saw the movie, so it was new for all i cared. The next stop was even more amazing, we were at a cafe and talked for long, i totally forgot how much of annintrovert i was and did not like to talk,lol. I have never been one to love crazy adventures and careless fun, yet i let him take me to the really dirty toilet of the cafe, where he kissed me passionately and even extended the kisses to my sumptious tities. "I caught my sub" were his exact words that faithful night. I had not taken him seriously,even after he explained that he understood that a certain writeup i put up on my status was for him. Well, when he went ahead to block me on whatsapp and other social media, except Snapchat, maybe he forgot,i felt bad. I thought to myself "I'm Uju and i will forget about him, just like i forgot people i had thought i would never forget in the past. But it has been more than a month and whenever he crossed my mind, it hurts. This is someone i saw just three times in my life and in three days left more memories than i have with people i have in my life till now. We did what looked like talking out things and he swore he never blocked me, but then, i knew it was the end. the end of what for the first time i felt i was ready to invest in. I have never been in a relationship because i scared my self out of one even before it started, but i felt with him, i was ready to try and it ended over a stupid Whatsapp status that i cannot even remember. One of the many thoughts that shatter my heart is "even if i posted something to sub him, which i would never do,was i not worth a conversation over it? i would have engaged him in one if tables were turned. So, i came to the painful conclusion that like i have always felt, i am easy to get over and he seized his first opportunity.